It aint' all bad...

My beautiful and wise counterpart prompted me this morning, as I was finishing making her and Natalie's lunches, and was getting breakfast ready for the kids. She said something like,

" you should reflect on the positives that have come out of this. You are so much more connected to your family, you participate in the household life,..."

Of course, she is right. My snotty first instinct was, would you settle for two negatives? But yes, I have really loved the opportunity to decompress, to synch with the rhythm of my family's needs and wants, to do the children dropping off and picking up, to make sure everyone has a lunch, a dry nose, a smile if possible...

It has been great. No lie. If zengineers would just get 50% more business, I could probably sustain this. Perhaps indefinitely. So, I work on the web design skills that will make people linger at my site, and learn what I have to offer. I work on keeping my one great customer happy, so that there is at least that. I work on keeping Connie happy (only within my sphere, you can never make someone else be happy...), because when she is I am moreso. And lately, I work on re-achieving some measure of body-mind-spirit connection, because that is something I am remembering from deep within, how good it felt to be a practicing yogi, not in tune surely, but moving toward it. Mixed results: I am getting stronger, my wind sucks still, but my head feels like a well-swept room. Empty how I like it. GTD is helping me keep it that way as well.

Anyway, it is not all angst and doom. I just need to cop an angle... I am going to work on getting a little somethin-somethin from this stimulus package.